"Beneath the makeup and behind the smile is a girl who wishes for the world."
-Marilyn Monore
"Sometimes in life your gonna hit rock bottom how you pick your self up will determine how things will end up so live it to the fullest & forget everything else" -Fatima Ruiz
Only god knows how many times i have actually hit rock bottom, but still with the bullshit and everything has happen to me with in the last year i can still say i have a good heart. I will not
give up on my dream witch i have no clue currently what they are but when i restore my self and think about what i really want i will hopefully succeed<3
My life feels like a rollercoster family,friends,love,school and just over all everything in life always has its ups and down but yet sometimes it feels more like a down. How crappy is that to say but that's how i feel i don't want no pity party but i think i bring it on myself. I always second guess my self which causes me to do ignorant things. Like for example Family- Everything i do never seems to be
good enough they want me to work a full time job and still go to college and take the 18 hours. Like that is totally impossible for me like i did that to make them happy . Friends- I cant tell who the fake from the real ones are and it sucks! Yes i have a true real ones like a hand full but the others are liars and they act one way with me and with other people the fake comes out or maybe there just being fake with me. Love- I don't even understand it right now it totally sucks like guys will always lie to get into your pants. Im honestly tired of it, like i hurt the one person who made me happy and loved me as much as i loved him and i messed everything up because i gave into temptation which was the biggest mistake of my life. I know you'll read this and all i can do is say im sorry. Words you know too well...School- I have a plan set out for me, but the question is how much am i willing to give up for this dream? I guess you can say im trying to see what truly makes me happy. Because isnt that what we all want just to be happy. I call it the road of discovery.
Only god knows how many times i have actually hit rock bottom, but still with the bullshit and everything has happen to me with in the last year i can still say i have a good heart. I will not
give up on my dream witch i have no clue currently what they are but when i restore my self and think about what i really want i will hopefully succeed<3
My life feels like a rollercoster family,friends,love,school and just over all everything in life always has its ups and down but yet sometimes it feels more like a down. How crappy is that to say but that's how i feel i don't want no pity party but i think i bring it on myself. I always second guess my self which causes me to do ignorant things. Like for example Family- Everything i do never seems to be
good enough they want me to work a full time job and still go to college and take the 18 hours. Like that is totally impossible for me like i did that to make them happy . Friends- I cant tell who the fake from the real ones are and it sucks! Yes i have a true real ones like a hand full but the others are liars and they act one way with me and with other people the fake comes out or maybe there just being fake with me. Love- I don't even understand it right now it totally sucks like guys will always lie to get into your pants. Im honestly tired of it, like i hurt the one person who made me happy and loved me as much as i loved him and i messed everything up because i gave into temptation which was the biggest mistake of my life. I know you'll read this and all i can do is say im sorry. Words you know too well...School- I have a plan set out for me, but the question is how much am i willing to give up for this dream? I guess you can say im trying to see what truly makes me happy. Because isnt that what we all want just to be happy. I call it the road of discovery.